NOT barefoot

i wake up after 9 hours,

just to feel like getting back in bed,

so i simply become one with the couch.

the miracle of baby building is in progress,

and it's draining all of my energy,
i don't ever remember being this exhausted before.

my 3 children just continue swirling around me in circles.

 {the current chaos: our attempt at a family pic at justin's k12 kindergarten graduation!}

narcolepsy sets in, eyelids get heavy:
mandatory nap time at 3:00!the whole house goes to sleep for 2 hours,

and it even happens in the middle of sacrament meeting at church each Sunday.

the kids are as excited as can be to help change some diapers,

a larger family and more messes will be worth it in the end,

i just hope that the house doesn't implode.

laundry piling and dishes mounting,

can barely see through the sliding glass door,
i don't dare walk barefoot in this house.

i desperately need to hire a regular housekeeper and throw away all of the toys.

pants feeling tighter and scale going up,
hopefully not too fast especially after loosing 50lbs,
but the toll on the body is worth it. yes, it is. 

hormones fluctuating wildly and patience waning,

i'm oversensitive and need a good cry,

when will the crankiness end??? (for my families sake)

constantly forgetting: 3 kids and not one has worn shoes on at our visit to interview a midwife??? seriously!?!?

not sure where my brain has gone: why did i come in this room? 

tell me, how could i leave my full cart of bought groceries in the parking lot at Trader Joe's???

at least i didn't leave a kid...but i still feel like a lunatic.

i'm excited. a fourth child to welcome to kiss and to nurse,

feeling up to the challenge done 3 times before,

and looking forward to a brand new one to love.

thanking my lucky stars i'm not vomiting,

just trying to stay awake,

can't wait for the 2nd "honeymoon" trimester.

a shout out to the world:  please bear with me,

this is a work in progress to be unveiled early January of 2011,

i'm just trying to enjoy the ride. 

i'm pregnant. 

{julie}

The translation: 

I'm pregnant and happily await the coming of a new baby early January....
....and for the 1st trimester to be OVER so life can get back to "normal"..... 

 {whatever that means since with each new child, my definition of normal changes drastically anyways.}

*not sure why i wrote this in poetry style since the last poem i wrote was in the 8th grade and each line started with the letters in my name, but it was fun to try something new. i especially enjoyed not capitalizing. i'm pretty sure it was inspired by terresa. i love her work.

what does pregnancy mean to you?