6.13.2010

NOT barefoot

i wake up after 9 hours,
just to feel like getting back in bed,
so i simply become one with the couch.

the miracle of baby building is in progress,
and it's draining all of my energy,
i don't ever remember being this exhausted before.

my 3 children just continue swirling around me in circles.

 {the current chaos: our attempt at a family pic at justin's k12 kindergarten graduation!}

narcolepsy sets in, eyelids get heavy:
mandatory nap time at 3:00!the whole house goes to sleep for 2 hours,
and it even happens in the middle of sacrament meeting at church each Sunday.

the kids are as excited as can be to help change some diapers,
a larger family and more messes will be worth it in the end,
i just hope that the house doesn't implode.

laundry piling and dishes mounting,
can barely see through the sliding glass door,
i don't dare walk barefoot in this house.

i desperately need to hire a regular housekeeper and throw away all of the toys.

pants feeling tighter and scale going up,
hopefully not too fast especially after loosing 50lbs,
but the toll on the body is worth it. yes, it is. 

hormones fluctuating wildly and patience waning,
i'm oversensitive and need a good cry,
when will the crankiness end??? (for my families sake)

constantly forgetting: 3 kids and not one has worn shoes on at our visit to interview a midwife??? seriously!?!?
not sure where my brain has gone: why did i come in this room? 
tell me, how could i leave my full cart of bought groceries in the parking lot at Trader Joe's???

at least i didn't leave a kid...but i still feel like a lunatic.

i'm excited. a fourth child to welcome to kiss and to nurse,
feeling up to the challenge done 3 times before,
and looking forward to a brand new one to love.

thanking my lucky stars i'm not vomiting,
just trying to stay awake,
can't wait for the 2nd "honeymoon" trimester.

a shout out to the world:  please bear with me,
this is a work in progress to be unveiled early January of 2011,
i'm just trying to enjoy the ride. 

i'm pregnant. 

{julie}


The translation: 
I'm pregnant and happily await the coming of a new baby early January....
....and for the 1st trimester to be OVER so life can get back to "normal"..... 
 {whatever that means since with each new child, my definition of normal changes drastically anyways.}


*not sure why i wrote this in poetry style since the last poem i wrote was in the 8th grade and each line started with the letters in my name, but it was fun to try something new. i especially enjoyed not capitalizing. i'm pretty sure it was inspired by terresa. i love her work.

what does pregnancy mean to you?

22 comments:

Leslie said...

Just got back from being out of town so up late and saw this ... Congratulations!!

Tara said...

Congratulations! Being pregnant means torture to me. But I do love having a new baby to love. I hope your first trimester goes by quickly!

Theresa said...

Congratulations! that's so exciting. I hope you feel better soon. yay for number 4!

Maynor Moments said...

That is wonderful!!! I am so happy for you guys!!

Melissa, Ryan and Addy said...

Congratulations! I hope you start feeling more energy soon. I had a very good pregnancy, however I was always very tired too. Hope you start feeling more energy soon, but if not you have a great excuse!

Judy said...

Congratulations! I am so excited for you!! New babies are so much fun!!

Judy said...

Congratulations! I am so excited for you!! New babies are so much fun!!

Amber said...

That's so exciting!! I love the poem. :)

Katrina said...

I LOVED your poem! Congratulations. This is such exciting news. Let me know if I can do anything to help. I know being pregnant is hard, especially when you have other ones you need to take care of.

Mansius Family said...

Congratulations!!!

Amanda Warren said...

Oh Julie, I am happy for you. But, I know exactly how you are feeling. I am 3 weeks away from giving birth to my 4th child. This pregnancy has left me exhausted and cranky. I can tell that my 31 year old body isn't quite as agile as it was when I gave birth to my first child at age 24. I wish you the best. You are lucky that you have your mom so close at hand. Mine lives 10 plus hours away.

Stacie said...

How fun this will be for all of you!

Anonymous said...

I'm tired too... just thinking of you having to take care of four such young ones (you were 10 when Amanda was born, right). You're such a great mom, this will be good for you. I love my Sweet Julie!!! Love, MOM

Ashby Family said...

ok first CONGRATULATIONS! Second, third and so on: please send your three little ones to me when you need a break, call me and I we can have a laundry party or dishes or sweeping etc. what ever you need ; )

Audrey Taylor said...

I bet it's twins =)

Mary said...

I'm very happy for you! Congrats! What midwife are you seeing? I'd love to know.

i said...

I'm glad some of you like the poem. I even enjoy reading it! :)

Mary, I haven't decided which midwife. :) I have decided to do a homebirth. Sooooo much better than being in the hospital, even if it costs a lot more. :)

Chels said...

CONGRATS JULIE! hooray for #4~ you are awesome! ANd who cares if you have a messy house, happy kids are way cooler than a clean house! Let that house be messy and enjoy them kiddos who grow up before we know it, and then you can have a spotless house all the time! LOL! Again, congratulations!

Michelle said...

Congrats on baby number 4! It was good seeing you at the graduation for a minute. You look great!

Karen said...

I am WAY behind on my blog reading, so I just got to reading this post! Congratulations!!! How fun for you and your family. (well maybe not the yucky prego symptoms ;)

Andrea said...

Julie, Congrats! You are so funny! I didn't know you lost 50lbs. AWESOME! You look great in your pictures! Home birth is really more expensive? Is that possible? Good luck with that.

Melissa ( Twin # 1 ) said...

Congrats!!!!! Yes Being Pregnant is exausting!!!! Trust me I know!!! Just found out what my "oops" Baby is going to be!!!! It's a Girl, I knew there was a purpose behind the "oops" process. Good Luck, and can't wait for the 2nd Trimester to hit for you,Mine was Wonderful.